I need to take a moment to vent about this costume. Most of my friends have already heard this in some way, shape, or form, in bits and pieces… And I’m not looking for reassurance, or sympathy, or anything really… I just need to vocalize this.
I’m cleaning my apartment, and I still haven’t unpacked from KatsuCon. I have gotten as far as putting this helmet away and then felt so disgusted, I didn’t want to even glance at the rest of this. I actually hate this costume. Which is insanely aggravating and disappointing, because I was so excited for it in the beginning, and I worked so hard, and wanted to badly for it to be good… and it’s just not. I know you can’t see it in the photos, but that armor? Is some of the worst work I’ve ever done. The material I used for the ridges does not hold paint well at all. It cracks, and peels, and makes me feel like my work is trash. The only thing I can use on it is low temp hot glue, which barley holds it. Half the pieces are peeling, and the other half have messy globs of glue. I Look at this helmet and armor in it’s finished state, and it makes me sick with disappointment. The wig color is horribly unflattering on me, and the wig itself impossible to make look as nice and full as the reference art. I moved the waist syncher tonight, and 4 of the stripes popped off completely. The entire thing is uncomfortable to wear — I was in physical pain when I wore it at KatsuCon, thanks to the 2 layers of corsets, and the inability to move for fear that something on this remarkably fragile costume will pop off or damage itself— and looks so horrible on the underside, that the idea of anyone catching a glance of it makes me physically ill. I am just thoroughly embarrassed of what a mess it is, and the only pieces I like are the sewn pieces (such a minor piece in the grand scheme of things) and the bow (which I can’t even take credit for — that’s all Mandy’s beautiful work).
Part of me wishes I could make it so I’d be happy with it, but it’s such a mess now that even if I fixed it, I think I would always feel like it’s a mess. But every time I look at a piece of it, I just want to cry. All I can think is “I’m Better than this!”
But that doesn’t fix it.